maybe..
♥ shan 杉 signed off at 4:25 PM

WAH THANKS SANDRAAA FOR SAVING MY TAGBOARD.

it's like so dead, compared to her very active one.
like me, i was decomposing in tuition today. even jieqi admitted it was damn boring.
and i had a rather lousy result for the dynamics test. grah.

anyway, sandra's post made me saaaad T.T

why is my primary school life like so uh... not fun?

maybe because i was a nerd at that time.
maybe because i was always studying with no life.
maybe because i never had friends over or gone to their houses.
maybe because i was stupid enough to drop one class away from my good friends.
maybe because my class simply had me and mel together.
maybe because my class had only 12 girls and 28 boys.

so yes, i can therefore conclude that primary school life has been a bore.
my inference rocks.
but wells, i still want to go back no matter how shitty it had been.
and i have almost forgotten everyone and everything that has happened there..
blame my deprived childhood?
maybe..

i also just realised how small the world can be.
i know someone, and through that person, i know someone else.
and then i find out that that person is actually my friend's friend or something.
like how the hell can it be so coincidental.
maybe because of this small red dot.
that everyone is connected in some way or another..

i never believed in best friends.
maybe because these stuff dont last.
still remember us on the train talking about life after dhs.
and it's most probably that we'll forget each other
and never see each other again after prom.
dont it suck. friends for 4 or more years
and after that high school education everything ends.
so yes, i dont believe in forever.
it just sucks more when you're like going on and on about "friends forever" and before you know it, it's "byebye, never to see you again".

i wanna replay time.
remember all the past happenings and stuff.
i wanna change some stuff.
but if i did, i'd probably not be here, not be with cheryl and 3E
and the past two years would have been different.

i almost went to tkgs, cause my sister was there,
and it made things seem so fun and happening.
thank lucky stars i chose dhs instead, if not for that, i'd probably not be in 1B, 2B and then 3E.
also, my desire for triple science and to be a doctor.
if i had transferred out of 3E and successfully gotten into a triple science class, i wouldnt have all the fun i've been having.

my sister says dunman high is full of cliques.
while other schools are just purely bonded to everyone.
aint that true?
everywhere i go, i see the people hanging with the same people.
i dont want to be like that. but what can i do man.

we buy friendship bands for seven of us.
one loses it and then, we all start losing it.
and now, it's only friendship bands for both of us.
there's no meaning anymore.

maybe i should stop walking, stop rushing, stop everything and think about myself.
maybe i'm the one not good enough.
maybe..

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