♥ shan 杉 signed off at 10:34 PM

suddenly feeling so messed up.

read other blogs, obvious that almost everyone has led an enriched holiday, done their homework, or on their way to completing them. worked hard to earn cash. had fun meeting up and going out.

me? come to think of it, i gained nothing out of this holidays. feel like a bum, a couch potato. well i think i've gained weight, considering the amount of food i had in Korea.

done none of the homework, physics is too difficult, chem paper cannot be found, chinese makes me sleepy, LA i dont even know what i'm supposed to do. i guess i've learnt something, that is to never leave the books, even after exams. cos i really spilled everything out after that, retaining nothing in my brains.

other than working and going overseas, computer was everything. catching variety shows, new dramas, listening to new songs, cutting myself from the outside world. and i still havent touched the pile of homework.

the room's a mess. sec three stuff not cleared. there's a pile of i-don't-know-what on my table, everything is just... scattered.

maybe i should give it a thought, like maybe i should do something about it. maybe i should leave the computer aside and do something that's constructive. but i guess that's a little too late considering that school's starting in two days.

tomorrow is the last day of the year 2007..

if you think you're lousy, then you're lousy.
that's what i'm feeling right now.

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